Oh...growing once again!

This will be more of a journal entry. Wow, I can drink. I am not sure if I like the person that drinks. Where do I go? Who is taking over? Is it my alter ego, my mind, or have I been possesed! But the power I have to involve others. I am an instigator. I know this. How come I get so mad when someone takes the rule book out of my hands? I like to be in charge and when I am not....I get angry. That isn't good. We need to take turns. I need to learn how to share. Share what is the question! I am here to Grow. To know that I really do have people that love me and they do the things they think I want. I guess there is a lot to be said about that. I think I am going to lay off of the sauce for a while to see if I like the sane me better. Plus, I am sure I can get in to just as much trouble without it! But would it be as fun? Is what I experienced exactly fun? Things to ponder or just learn breifly from them. I do know that I have a wonderful man in my life that takes great care of me, my daughter and everyone else that is important to our family and friends. I am very lucky. Maybe, I should count my blessing instead of trying to figure out what made me upset. Jelousy is not a good color for me. Note to self!!!